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A Miracle (Perhaps!)
Jul. 9th, 2005 06:19 pmI was going to speak of this this week, but with the events of 7/7, i was not in the mood. Now i feel ready to put down in writing my feelings.
Since i was born i have not had any eyesight in my eye. I had a congenital cataract. For the early part of my life, up to the age of about 10 i had a hard contact lens, which i absolutely hated. I finally rebelled and got rid of it, saying that i would do without it and people would have to accept me as i am! Anyhow i noriced around about the age of 11/12 that i could see very blurred shapes black and white, like an out of focus projector. But nothing could be done to bring my sight back.
A few years ago, oh roughly 1995/96 my cataract unexpectedly burst and i was kept overnight in hospital with a view to an eye operation. However as my eye was too inflamed they sent me home with eyedrops and i got put on a waiting list for about a year. The cataract dissolved and the eye surgery was cosmetic surgery to further correct a squint in my eye.
Since then i have noticed improvements in the quality of what little sight i have in my eye. It is nothing much, if it was my only eye for seeing with i would need a guide dog and be blind, but however i am now seeing colours, shapes are more clearer and i can see the fingers on my hand more defined instead of a fuzzy pinkish mass. Whilst i am pleased with the improvements, i really dont know what else medically can be done. Back in 1996 they said nothing could be done to restore my sight. Now i have to face the mental battle of knowing that i can "see" but can't do anything about it. I am thinking seriously of going back to my GP and having a long chat to see if anything else can be done. Perhaps be referred to an eye consultant. I remember once i was in a more wicked mood and i managed (from a telephone box pre mobile phone days) to get pass the secretary and speak to the UK's top eye doctor for advice at Moore's Eye hopsital in London !!! But he would have had to see me in person to make a proper assessment.
I think i will go and get myself sorted out, but there is no rush. I have just had one operation, and i dont think my employer would be too chuffed if i had to go off another few months for another op ! So i would be wise to wait another year. For now my main priority is to lose alot of weight and get my knee fit again. If i can do that, perhaps then i can think about getting a second opinion. In all likelyhood the answer would be no. But i can live with that. But at least i would know and get on with my life, rather than miss out on an opportunity so important to me.
Since i was born i have not had any eyesight in my eye. I had a congenital cataract. For the early part of my life, up to the age of about 10 i had a hard contact lens, which i absolutely hated. I finally rebelled and got rid of it, saying that i would do without it and people would have to accept me as i am! Anyhow i noriced around about the age of 11/12 that i could see very blurred shapes black and white, like an out of focus projector. But nothing could be done to bring my sight back.
A few years ago, oh roughly 1995/96 my cataract unexpectedly burst and i was kept overnight in hospital with a view to an eye operation. However as my eye was too inflamed they sent me home with eyedrops and i got put on a waiting list for about a year. The cataract dissolved and the eye surgery was cosmetic surgery to further correct a squint in my eye.
Since then i have noticed improvements in the quality of what little sight i have in my eye. It is nothing much, if it was my only eye for seeing with i would need a guide dog and be blind, but however i am now seeing colours, shapes are more clearer and i can see the fingers on my hand more defined instead of a fuzzy pinkish mass. Whilst i am pleased with the improvements, i really dont know what else medically can be done. Back in 1996 they said nothing could be done to restore my sight. Now i have to face the mental battle of knowing that i can "see" but can't do anything about it. I am thinking seriously of going back to my GP and having a long chat to see if anything else can be done. Perhaps be referred to an eye consultant. I remember once i was in a more wicked mood and i managed (from a telephone box pre mobile phone days) to get pass the secretary and speak to the UK's top eye doctor for advice at Moore's Eye hopsital in London !!! But he would have had to see me in person to make a proper assessment.
I think i will go and get myself sorted out, but there is no rush. I have just had one operation, and i dont think my employer would be too chuffed if i had to go off another few months for another op ! So i would be wise to wait another year. For now my main priority is to lose alot of weight and get my knee fit again. If i can do that, perhaps then i can think about getting a second opinion. In all likelyhood the answer would be no. But i can live with that. But at least i would know and get on with my life, rather than miss out on an opportunity so important to me.
