Biting My Tounge !!!

Got up this morning and checked my mail. Looked on RNID site and A has posted more hate and vile on the DD thread. I was livid! The bastard. It is him who is the bully, not me. I was so tempted to respond, but i wont. I am sick of playing his stupid game, so am gonna bite my tounge and stay well clear. GRRRRRR! I just wish i could get rid of that little shit. He is wearing me down with all this online hatred.
On a more cheerful note I am gonna meet Ben very soon !!! I cant wait. He is comming to the Capital of Culture !!! Yay !!!! I am sooo excited. He is such a nice bloke. We get on really well online, but i have to confess i will be REALLY nervous to meet him in the flesh!! But i am sure once we have met we will get on like a house on fire, as good friends, i wish it could be more, but sadly not to be. But i am happy to be just good friends. And i could do with more male friends to be honest! Now i have another reason to get my knee healing faster !!! :)

Fed Up And Angry

I just feel very down today. The sun is out, the sky is blue but it is windy, so i am not going to go out and risk being blown over. But i want to go out!! WAAAAAAAHHHH !! I just wish my knee would heal more quickly. At least it is getting better, but ever so slowly !! Sigh !!
Am also upset as the RNID thing is getting to me. Also saw a joke about mammograms on Deaf Tribe which upset me as i dont think it is funny. If anyone has any dealings with Breast Cancer they will feel the same. I just feel so sad today. I know i will be ok later on, i think it is just the frustration of being couped up inisde all day that is eating away at me today. I think i am also sad as i dont have any choclatey things to eat in the house ie a Wagon Wheel (Hmmm yummy) and perhaps i am going cold turkey !! Not beyond the realms of possibility as chocolate is addictive, even more so than coccaine is, according to science/medical reports.
I know i have been off work for several weeks now becuase of my knee op, but i need a holiday ! I just need to get away and enjoy a change of scene. I have some leave comming up in June which is noce. I plan to have some days out then. In july i want to have a long weekend away and go to London. I want to visit the Proms this year if i can. Last time i went i was with my Mother. Hell i still have the Proms 89 tee shirt. What a very good year 1989 was. I was at Uni, peace broke out in the world with the collapse of the Soviet Union as it was, fall of Berlin Wall etc. they were happy times and there was real hope in the world that perhaps humanity had finally started to grow up. But the Gulf War shattered that hope in one fell swoop. Pandora's Box had been opened. The world has been living in fear since then and now the Yanks are worried about North Korea letting off a nuke. I see Dark and Gloomy Days Ahead ......

Oh i will be alright by tomorrow . Just feeling a bit low today.