Cornwall Lost :(

Feeling depressed today. Had a huge row with my Father today and i lost. I was really looking forward to going down to Cornwall. Penzance to be exact. But i cannot go now. I cant afford it. My Father says i cant afford it, but little does he know of the debt i am in already. I just want to scream. I hate this life. I just wanted to have some fun. God knows i need to get away from everything. I need the break. I feel very depressed. With all that has happened, my Father does not know half of what has happend. What with Chloe and everything. Hell even makropulos has no idea that Chloe accused him of being a pervert. I have been so tempted to e mail him and tell him, but Christ he would not beleive me if i did. He just wants to be with the in crowd and that's that. he has yet to learn who his real friends are!! With Chloe i learnt the hard way. I have sufficent evidence now that she was a manipulator of people. I did not see this at first, but i do now. At least she wont now have the opportunity to hurt me or anyone else from my own school. I have made sure of that by showing one of the people at School she was slagging off the evidence that she was slagging them off with quite serious allegations.

Right now i feel so depressed i could jump in front of a train or something. It's not the first time i have thought about that, but in the last few years i have been tempted. And after all the lies on Smoke Signals about me, and of course the betrayal by Chloe, not that anyone will see the deception by Chloe, cause she paints herself as innocent as the snow, i have come fucking damn close to topping myself. One day i will  probably find the guts to do so. But as long as my Father is alive i am holding back. But once he is gone then i will say goodbye to all the horrid people in this world.