Writer's Block: Troubled waters
Dec. 13th, 2009 01:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wirralbagpuss[Error: unknown template qotd]
Well that depends on the nature of the problem. I have many friends both at home and at work. People at work know about the recent problems i have had with some friends whom i cared so very much about and they have seen me in tears and have also seen me taking the step of telling them my of my long battle with depression, something i hid from the world for the best part of 20 years. However i would not have told them about how low i really got to the point of commiting suicide for example. I would only choose those i regard as a very close friend to do that. They know who they are too. I chat with my friends online mostly, but have also met up in real life too. I love my friends very much. But there is a fine line with pouring out my heart and soul. Sometimes you have to hold back just a little. I friended 4 people last year whom i loved dearly. But i held back, not that they realised this. But i hid my 20 year history of depression from them. I often wonder if that was the right thing to do, even though i trust in particular two of them totally and completely. I had to think of their feelings too. But in hindsight perhaps i should have told them about my depression? I just dont know. I have yet to find my Thy'lla. I hope one day i will. I had hoped in the last year i had found what i was looking for. Sadly i was to be left dissapointed :(
Well that depends on the nature of the problem. I have many friends both at home and at work. People at work know about the recent problems i have had with some friends whom i cared so very much about and they have seen me in tears and have also seen me taking the step of telling them my of my long battle with depression, something i hid from the world for the best part of 20 years. However i would not have told them about how low i really got to the point of commiting suicide for example. I would only choose those i regard as a very close friend to do that. They know who they are too. I chat with my friends online mostly, but have also met up in real life too. I love my friends very much. But there is a fine line with pouring out my heart and soul. Sometimes you have to hold back just a little. I friended 4 people last year whom i loved dearly. But i held back, not that they realised this. But i hid my 20 year history of depression from them. I often wonder if that was the right thing to do, even though i trust in particular two of them totally and completely. I had to think of their feelings too. But in hindsight perhaps i should have told them about my depression? I just dont know. I have yet to find my Thy'lla. I hope one day i will. I had hoped in the last year i had found what i was looking for. Sadly i was to be left dissapointed :(
