The Cat's Mieow !!!

First things first. I am extremely saddened to learn on the news about the terrible events in Germany and the crush that took place taking so many lives. it has upset me alot actually. I am reminded of Hillsborough. I do hope friends past and present living in Germany are all safe and have not been affected by this terrible tradegy. I have been worried sick about that actually. So I do hope everyone is alright. It is already being investigated as a crimminal matter. Good. People should be held accountable for this. I am not sure how the legal system works in Germany, but i imagine there will be manslaughter charges and the company involved in organsing the crowd/events side of things will be crimminally charged as well, business on manslaughter charges as well? Not to mention the civil litigation as well. And i have no sympathy for the people responsible. I have seen pictures of the event and what can i say? The place was too small, no adequate facilities and only one entrance and exit. Absoutely lethal. It should have been held at a local football staduim or big field. Somewhere like that. So yes i feel very sorry for everyone in Germany right now.
  Right as promised a quick update on my depression. Some good news. I am on medication and that has helped already. I am already feeling much better after two weeks being on them. I have been told i will be on them six months at least. I have counselling being sorted out as well, will take a week or so to get it all up and running but i am pleased as that i think will work alongside my medication. The side effects were horrid for about two weeks, headaches, upset stomach, dizzyness and extreme tiredness but thankfully i am recovered from all of that now. With that behind me i can concetrate on my recovery programme. It is not going to be easy. i know that i said i am feeling much better but in reality i know i have a hell of a long way to go before the issues/roots  behind my deepseated depression is resolved. But i am a fighter. I know i can  beat this. Its not a question of if. morelike how. And i think i have now got the how bit on its way to being sorted out. Oh and this is combined with a change in my eating habits thanks to my friends who i am very fond of and mean alot to me, i am starting to lose weight which is good news also. That will be a harder battle to win becasue of additional medical problems i have but one that is not completely impossible to achieve. But it all adds to my recovery programme. I am determined to win this. For too long this has been my private secret war. Now with sharing this publically i hope that i can help others in fighting this dreadful illness. If my words can help people then that is a bonus.