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Still Fighting
Jun. 26th, 2010 12:34 amDepression is a horrible thing. I have battled this thing for many years and not said a thing about it to the world until last year when i became overwhlemed by it. Deciding to be more open about my depression has been one of the most important decisions i have made i think. Since last year i have had my ups and downs. At the moment i am very much fighting the depression. How can i describe how i feel ? I guess it is like my heart breaking into a thousand pieces and there is nothing you can do to stop the pain. You feel out of control, you cannot escape the bite of the snake once it has coiled itself around you. So at the moment i am battling with it. It is not a nice feeling at all.
You can get help with depression as i will be doing once more. You can have the support of friends, and thank God i have wonderful close friends who have given me that support, and at my very lowest was my beacon in the darkness that gripped me. Recovery does take time as well. The pendulum is swinging back and forth all the time.
So why do i share this publically? Well first thing is that the more indepth discussion of my depression and battle with it will remain f locked. I will not share all my feelings publically. Just a very brief glimpse, a crack to peek through i suppose. But i wanted to share a little something because i know there are many people out their who will suffer from this bloody awful thing. My message is this. yes it is bloody lonely battle, yes it is painful and yes the mountain is a harder climb than Mt Everest. But it can be beaten. I have beaten this before many times over many many years. But i am still here. There is hope. There is light at the end of the tunnel. You just have to fight your way there.
I urge anyone who is fighting this to seek counselling or at least get support. Ultimately it is a battle only you can win, one has to pull themselves out of it, but it does help to get the counselling and support as well. Stepping stones across the river from depression into a world without too much pain. I promise you it is well worth it.
So keep fighting. The battle can be won :)
You can get help with depression as i will be doing once more. You can have the support of friends, and thank God i have wonderful close friends who have given me that support, and at my very lowest was my beacon in the darkness that gripped me. Recovery does take time as well. The pendulum is swinging back and forth all the time.
So why do i share this publically? Well first thing is that the more indepth discussion of my depression and battle with it will remain f locked. I will not share all my feelings publically. Just a very brief glimpse, a crack to peek through i suppose. But i wanted to share a little something because i know there are many people out their who will suffer from this bloody awful thing. My message is this. yes it is bloody lonely battle, yes it is painful and yes the mountain is a harder climb than Mt Everest. But it can be beaten. I have beaten this before many times over many many years. But i am still here. There is hope. There is light at the end of the tunnel. You just have to fight your way there.
I urge anyone who is fighting this to seek counselling or at least get support. Ultimately it is a battle only you can win, one has to pull themselves out of it, but it does help to get the counselling and support as well. Stepping stones across the river from depression into a world without too much pain. I promise you it is well worth it.
So keep fighting. The battle can be won :)
